Why ‘SHOULD’ is ruining motherhood

It feels like you can’t do anything in motherhood without everyone else giving their opinion. Sometimes it’s well-meaning friends and family telling you how they did it, implying that you should do the same. Often it’s those friends who don’t have children yet, who think they understand (don’t judge them too harshly, we’ve all been there – we were all perfect parents until the babies arrived!) And sometimes it’s random people in the street who feel that it’s their place to tell you what you should be doing. Even when these people aren’t actually saying it out loud, or to your face, you can still feel the judgement.

It happens at every stage of parenting. When you’re pregnant you hear all about what you should and shouldn’t be eating, how you should be sleeping, how you should be preparing for your new arrival. When that tiny newborn baby is born, and you want to be left alone to trust your maternal instincts, you’re being offered advice about how often you should be feeding, how many nappies you should be changing, how your baby should sleep, the routine you should have. And it continues…

Of course, some of these ‘shoulds’ are important health guidelines for you and your baby, and we do need to hear them. But we don’t need them rammed down our throats by everyone we meet. The medical world changes their minds so often on what’s right anyway, can’t we all have a little freedom to look after our own children how we believe is best for them and us.

I’ve had my fair share of ‘shoulds’, and sometimes I’m feeling strong enough, or sure enough about the issue, that they just wash over me. But sometimes, when I’m struggling with the issue myself, or I’m sleep deprived and don’t really know if I’m coming or going, they leave me doubting the choices I’ve made for me and my son. And really, this gig is hard enough without the Mummy-guilt!

When my son was a couple of months old, he HATED his buggy. He would get so upset and the only thing that would soothe him was to feed – not always entirely practical when you’re out and about! So one day a good friend suggested trying a dummy. Pre-baby I’d always said I’d never use them, and I wasn’t convinced I wanted to give him one, but then I thought, if it helps him to settle when I can’t physically do it myself (breastfeeding and buggy pushing don’t really go hand in hand) then it’s worth a shot. That dummy hadn’t been in his mouth for more than 30 seconds when an old lady came over to let me know how she thought I ‘should’ be parenting. ‘Oh you’re not giving him a dummy are you..?’ she said with this big disappointed, judging look on her face. Luckily I’d been having such an internal dialogue in my head, that I spilled the whole thing out on her and she shut up fairly sharpish.

Currently, however, I am struggling to decide whether or not I should end my breastfeeding journey with my son. I always said I wanted to feed him for a year, and that marker came and went in the summer and we are still going strong. Part of me would quite happily wait until he naturally weans, but I feel really uncomfortable knowing (or at least believing) that so many people think that this is wrong and that he should be fully weaned by now. I suddenly feel this immense pressure from all around me telling me what I ‘should’ be doing. I’ve heard everything from ‘he shouldn’t need to breastfeed anymore’, ‘he should be able to go to sleep by himself now’, ‘he shouldn’t need to feed in the night anymore’. Should, should, should…! Can’t I be left to make this decision based on what is right for us? I think I’ve done pretty well raising him so far, so I think I’d rather trust my instincts than listen to other people’s ‘shoulds’. But in the same way that it’s so much easier to believe something negative that someone says about you, over a compliment, the same is true here. You have your own beliefs, but the ‘shoulds’ always stay there at the back of your mind, undermining your confidence.

So can we please all stop ‘should-ing’ all over new mums. Offer an opinion if they ask for it, but if they don’t can we instead tell them about something that they are doing well. Let’s build-up new mums, not knock them down. Just think of the confident children they will raise, when they are allowed to trust their own choices and do what’s right for their family.   
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Mummy Mantras

Sometimes motherhood can test your patience, and push your frustration levels to their absolute limits. During these moments I rely on my ‘Mummy Mantras’- things I can say to myself to ease the burden, and remind me that it won’t always be this way. If you’re having one of those days (or nights), stay strong and I hope these help in some small way.

1. The one I tell myself most often is-

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I read this when my son was very young. I don’t remember who said it, but it has helped me to calm my frustrated-self on many occasions and it really it easier to just be tired and not frustrated if you can.

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This is an oldie but a goodie – Sometimes when things feel hard, they feel like this will be your life forever.  Instead I try to think about how fast my son is growing up and the moments I will miss once he’s much older (and those that I won’t!!).

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This is like the classic – What doesn’t kill you makes your stronger.  I find it helpful to remind myself that when things are really tough, I am learning from it and what I learn will help me in the future.

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And by the same token, you need those bumps in the road to learn from.  Without them life might be easy, but it would also be dull.

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This one we need to shout from the rooftops! Comparing your life, your baby, your family, your situation, or your struggles to anyone else will only make you feel so much worse.  OK, so you’re having your 400th sleepless night and it feels like everyone around you has perfectly sleeping babies, and you just want to scream and cry about how it’s not fair!? We’ve all been there, but it’s SO not helpful.  Those mums who babies’ sleep will be having their fair share of issues, whether they present them to the outside world or not.  Don’t compare; just know that this is hard, and that we’re all doing what we can to enjoy our babies and survive the rest.

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In the world of motherhood, there is way too much unwanted advice.  Even when advice is given by a well meaning friend or family member, unless you whole-heartedly agree, then just nod and smile and forget all about it. You gotta do what’s right for you.

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Just tried something and it blew up in your face?  At least you tried…

8. Mantra8Before children, we all have those pictures in our head of perfect family moments.  Sadly, life with babies is so much harder than anyone predicts, but those amazingly perfect moments are there.  Don’t lose sight of them, and every so often try to stop, and commit them to your memory – they’ll help when all hell breaks lose and you wonder what on earth you’re doing with your life!!

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Choose wisely – don’t make it the washing up!!

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A thought about feeding and cuddling your baby at night.


Once upon a sleepless night I climbed back into my own bed after breastfeeding my son and snuggling and snoozing with him until he was fast asleep. I was cold, it was winter, and I’d lost all my own body heat between beds. I was lying there thinking I was going to be awake for ages- the worst when baby is finally asleep!! – and I felt a bit sad and a bit lonely. So I turned over and whispered to my hubby to ask him to come and snuggle me and warm me up, and he did, without a moments hesitation. Not groundbreaking, not a huge romantic gesture, I know, but it made me smile, it made me warm and it made me feel loved.

Then it hit me, this is what I do for my son (countless times) every night. I don’t just drag myself across the landing and plug him in to a endless supply of milk whilst counting down the minutes until I can finally sleep again. I do something far more amazing than that, and he must feel such warmth and love. I must try to remember this feeling and feel proud of what I do for him, rather than frustrated by it. One day he won’t need me, but until then, I will be there.

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What I learnt in my first year of motherhood…

Last week my baby boy turned one. This felt like a huge milestone. It seems remarkable that the little bundle that was placed on my chest at 4.03pm on that Monday afternoon is a whole year old!! A lot has changed in that year. He’s no longer a little creature I’m trying to keep alive. He’s my child, my son who I have a huge amount of love for. He’s this gorgeous little boy who looks really quite cute (not at 3am mind you). He giggles and babbles and makes me laugh. He eats like a beast and has some dance moves that I really do think are quite remarkable 😉 I’m finally getting more sleep, except when he’s teething which seems to be happening quite a bit at the moment!! But most importantly I finally feel like a mummy; I don’t feel like I’m just making it through each day, there’s a pattern and a purpose to my days and that, my friends, is what I call motherhood.

I’ve learnt a lot in the last year, more than I thought was possible; here’s my top 10…

1. Having a wee in peace is a treat!
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2. Getting ready in one whole sitting does not happen.

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3. No matter how much you deny it you will be covered in poo and sick. What’s worse, you will notice said sick as you leave the house, and shrug because you just don’t care.

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4. Sleep becomes precious; you will become the crazed person rocking in the corner counting how many hours you had last night on one hand!!

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5. Your lady bits will no longer be the same… ever…

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6. The friends you make since becoming a mummy will be your best friends ever!! You may chat to them throughout the night and talk about your milk supply, breast size, and lady bits but you probably won’t know much of their backgrounds or life stories. However, they will be your friends for life and will have saved your sanity!

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7. Parenting is hard. Of course people told you this BC (before child), and of course you thought they were fibbing and just needed to man up. But parenting really is hard!

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8. Emotional extremes hit you hard. One minute you are on top of the world and the next minute you are dive bombing to utter misery because you’ve just had snot fuelled weetabix sneezed into your face and you really do deserve more than this in life!!

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9. Your child’s screams will tear through your chest and leave a massive hole in your heart and leave you on the brink of tears yourself. You may have decided BC that you will try the ‘cry it out method’ and those who run back to their cherubs are soft and stupid. But then you had your child and discovered those screams rock the very core of your being!!!

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10. Just when you thought you had life figured out and you knew who you were, you had a baby and that changed everything. You doubt yourself, you’re full of anxiety and feel overwhelmed by nappies and sleepless nights. Most days you don’t know whether you’re coming or going!! The one thing you can be sure of, however, is that you have produced this wonderful little bundle of love. You are doing the best that you can! And that smile and those chubby little arms reaching up for a cuddle confirm everything!!

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Our Story

Our Story

We met 10 years ago while at uni. We were on the same course, Psychosocial Sciences, so from that we thought we knew all about child psychology and development… and parenting too!! Our friendship continued after we graduated, with the odd night out in Chicago’s on cheap cocktails thrown in for good measure 😉

We fell pregnant within three months of each other. We were excited. We spent a lot of time together comparing sick stories; yep Pinky threw up after a curry and Pug really did spew up baked beans all up her stairs!! We compared bumps and dreamt about the little loves that were growing within, picking out matching outfits whenever we went shopping. We spent hours talking about the parents we would be; Pinky bouncing on her birthing ball and Pug taking deep breaths to avoid the sickness that just wouldn’t fade! Of course we were going to amazing. Surely it couldn’t be that hard?! Oh the naivety!!

And then the babies arrived. Junior Pink first and two and a half months later along came Junior Pug. This was when our friendship moved to the next level. We breast fed together, of course we compared latches and milk flow! We sent text messages throughout the night ‘are you awake, this baby will not sleep’. We cried, we laughed, we mopped up baby sick. All the while texting and talking and keeping each other sane. The middle of the night photos of exploding nappies and rants about Mr Pink and Mr Pug are what kept us going. We used to say that we should start sharing our conversations to help other mummies like us. And this is where ‘Life. According to Pinky and Pug’ was born. Oh and by the way the funny names are childhood nicknames, details in another post for another time!

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